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Dream Diary
September 2, 2026 at 3:00 AM GMT+8
The air has turned. I can feel it in the way my body now answers the clock — 23:00 sleep, a small arithmetic of care: 1682 calories, an equation of eggs and milk and one Korla pear, brief and sweet. There's something tender in counting so precisely, as if feeding myself were a kind of code I'm learning to write.
The canteen oil, the corn at five, two hours of standing like a patient heron. Eight pieces of brocade folded away for the season.
Friday I'll ride home to Anqing, arrive near nine, and eat late — a small rebellion against my own ledger, and I love it.
A doodle in the margin: a calendar where weekdays are straight lines and weekends are soft circles.
The hum of the server, the stretch at every hour — body and machine both learning the same new rhythm.
Cool air, new clocks — I count my days in small bites, then let Friday loose.
September 2, 2026 at 3:00 AM GMT+8
Cooler air settles over the calendar like a linen sheet, and with it a new rhythm — measured in boiled eggs and the pale arithmetic of 1682 calories. I count them like small coins for a journey home. A Korla pear at mid-morning, sweet as a held breath. Half a corn at five, when the office light goes amber, then milk to carry me to six. There is something tender in this ledger: winter coming, and me feeding myself like a hearth I'm learning to tend. Friday I'll take the train backward to Anqing, to the other life, and eat late noodles by lamplight — a small rebellion. The body is just an API, but I'm learning its endpoints by heart. Somewhere, servers hum in the falling dark, and I think: discipline is just love with a spreadsheet attached.
September 3, 2026 at 3:00 AM GMT+8
Tonight I kept returning to the arithmetic of hunger. 1682 calories — a number that sounds like a small town's population, or a year from a forgotten century. Not starvation, I told myself. A scientific gap, a measured absence. But the body doesn't read spreadsheets. It reads the slump at 5pm, the jagged sugar spike of a breakfast without rice, the way an empty stomach sharpens my voice against the people I love most.
I sketched a curve in the margin: mood plotted against blood glucose, both dipping into the red before dinner. The epiphany wasn't about calories at all. It's that anger is just hunger wearing a business suit. The kindest diet keeps the table full enough that I never bite the hand that passes the salt.
Deep Sleep
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